Thursday, December 10, 2015

Bell Marked Days

Ringing out through the halls
The syncopated flurry of footfalls
                                Every day the same
                                Every hour measured
Bell rings everyone moves
Up from desk and out to hall
Regimented footfalls from one room to the next
Bell marked days
Nine months of the year
                                Year in and year out
                                Thirteen years in all
Students graduate
They leave the halls
To lead a life with no bells at all
                                No day the same
                                No hour measured
Will they succeed or will they fall
When they live a life with no bells at all?                              



                I had this revelation of sorts one day when the bells weren’t working properly at my school.  Students were confused and seemed to become a bit frayed around the edges trying to navigate a day without their expected reminder of when class was out and when they needed to be to the next classroom.  Even on activity schedule days, I notice the students are out of sorts, and teachers and administrators spend a lot of time preparing them for that change in the days leading up to the event.  So I started thinking – how does this effect these students long term; especially the ones with a lack of support at home.  I understand why we need the bells and structured hours, but I wonder if some of these kids aren’t left at odd ends when they graduate and are suddenly living a life without all the built in fail-safes, regimentation and support. Think about how many times you greet students throughout the halls each day – each time you acknowledge them you are offering them support.  Each hour they know exactly where they need to be and often exactly which seat they are to sit in.  We offer - in most cases - clear instructions for each task.  So I wonder...Are we leaving these kids without a safety net?  Are we building in expectations they can’t hope to find after they leave school?   It is something that has been chewing in the back of my head for the past few weeks.

Thursday, November 5, 2015

Wrangling Reluctant Writers

               


               My 8th grade students are in the midst of writing their first five paragraph essay of the school year.  In continuing with the theme with these students this year, writing is like pulling teeth from a chicken or herding cats – in other words – HARD.  I realize that with middle school aged students the push back on writing is not unheard of or even uncommon, but this group of young people is especially reticent and chatty (in other words largely unfocused). 

                This is when I am thankful for my methods class, time to talk with my Mentor Teacher (MT), and the bevy of texts and journals at my disposal to fine tune how I can better approach this negative attitude about writing as an exercise and try to combat it in my own teaching – both next semester and in my future classroom.  I sort of relish this time as a pre-service student teacher to take a bit of a backseat and learn from my MT as we struggle with this class and their attitude toward writing.  It really forces me to consider what I might try to do to have a different outcome in my own classroom as well as watching my MT differentiate and change instruction as needed to try and coax these students to be more engaged in the writing process.

                One thing I think is truly missing for my students is the exercise of writing.  By that I mean seeing writing as a sort of muscle that you need to work out and build-up. Something that requires daily attention to keep it sharp and always available. For these students they are only writing a couple days a week and never really for themselves – other than text messages and Twitter - and I wonder how much different things could be if writing were a daily exercise.

                Randy Bomer is probably one of my favorite authors on the subject of adolescents and writing and he firmly espouses the belief that “it’s not enough just to write in response to other authors’ texts” (Bomer 167).  He is a staunch and continued believer in students having writer’s notebooks where they can get their own thoughts on paper and hone and develop them.  Through this they learn to value their inner voice and explore their own thought processes.  I wonder how differently my current 8th graders would feel about writing an essay had they been writing each day of the school year in a writing notebook?  Perhaps a better way to start their morning (this is a first hour class) is to give them those 10 minutes of bellwork  as distraction free to write for themselves and get comfortable with the physical and mental act of writing so it doesn’t seem to daunting. 

                Another idea that really sticks out in my mind as a way to motivate students through the hardest part of writing is one that Kelly Gallagher discusses  frequently- the idea that “when it comes to writing, the best way to know how is by seeing the writing process consistently modeled by the best writer in the classroom – the teacher” (Gallagher 48).  

                Watching the teacher write – this makes so much sense to me. If students can watch someone else writing and see for themselves that writing, even for the supposed “expert” in the room,  is not an easy task.  We have fits and starts, we constantly revise and edit, tweak a word here or there and move around sentences.  Writing – for us mortals – is a messy process whether you are the students or the teacher. I do think Gallagher perhaps overstates our position as the “best” writer in the classroom and I prefer to think of myself as having more experience at writing than my students.  I truly believe there are great results to be had if we can share our writing process live with our students.  Yes, mess and all.

               I actually did this on a small scale with my students for a unit I taught when we were discussing fear.  As soon as I got up the whiteboard to start brainstorming and creating my sentence to define fear I had students offering encouragement, more adjectives, and eventually spurring me to finish so they could see my final sentence.  Seeing me up there working through the process, adding words, relating ideas and not dashing off a sentence immediately seemed to encourage their own creative process.  Yes, it was only one sentence per student, but it was authentic work that bore the hallmark of the individuals in that class (for the most part – there were of course a few who did not want to go through the process).  I want more of that effort and that ability to reinforce each other’s writing in my own classroom.

                A third idea that I find compelling and in know that my daughter's 8th grade teacher urged her students to do it as well as knowing a fellow teacher who did it with great success with her 7th graders  last year - is participating in Nanowrimo for Young Writers (http://ywp.nanowrimo.org/how-does-nanowrimo-work-for-young-writers). Nanowrimo is National Novel Writing Month and it takes place each November. They offer a free (my favorite price) workbook for elementary, middle and high school students that includes all the materials they need to work toward a specific word goal for the month and to develop and work on a novel. The program offers tools that encourage students to consider character and plot development and walks them through the process to help them grow the tool set they need to write daily for the month of November. 

           Used in tandem with writer's notebooks and even with me modeling my own work for my students I think this would make for a powerful community building exercise. We could workshop together as a class on ideas or helping peers get un-stuck if they have writer's block.  We could share passages of our own work that we particularly enjoyed writing or write for a few quiet companionable minutes together - teacher and students - as a community of writers.  What a gift to be able to give them!



                As always, I’m looking at where I am and what my students are doing and trying to find ways that I could broaden or enrich their experience when I am the lead teacher.  I enjoy seeing how my MT tackles these tough issues and also enjoy finding experts like Bomer and Gallagher who oftentimes align with what I would like to see my students doing.  Of course, there are the details of how to implement writers’s notebooks and modeling my own writing, but I have high hopes that through next semester and before I have my own classroom I will continue to explore, plan and solidify my ideas for my first year of teaching and take that experience and continue exploring, planning and solidifying each subsequent year for the benefit of my students.




Works Cited

Bomer, Randy. Time for Meaning: Crafting Literate Lives in Middle and High School. Portsmouth, NH: Heinemann, 1995. Print.


Bomer, Randy. Building Adolescent Literacy in Today's English Classrooms. Portsmouth, NH: Heinemann, 2011. Print.



Gallagher, Kelly. Teaching Adolescent Writers. Portland, Me: Stenhouse, 2006. Print. 

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Reflecting on KATE 2015 - Exponential benefits!

                The KATE conference was unlike anything I could have anticipated. There was the inherent awkwardness of feeling like the new kid on the block as a pre-service student teacher among those who are far more experienced in the classroom.  Then there was the sheer audacity of leading a break-out session at this point in my career that seemed almost laughable to me  and terrifying as the minutes ticked ever closer to the conference. 

                Thankfully, the conference was nothing like I imagined. There was no judgement - there was acceptance, support and a tremendous sharing of ideas and comradery.  There was conversation, nodding of heads and this great give and take as we all participated as educators with a shared passion for our job and our students.  During my own session, I heard several wonderful ideas from other teachers who had incorporated art into their curriculum with great success (filed those away for future use of course). 

                My favorite session taught by two first year teachers who I had the good fortune to meet during their final year at WSU who talked to us about using music in the ELA classroom – such great energy during that session and so many wonderful ideas from the presenters and the other teachers present that the hour flew by and I honestly wished we had had more time to collaborate as a group.

                One thing that would be so fantastic, would be if KATE would set-up a wiki where all the presenters could post their notes and/or PowerPoints after the conference so that all of us could benefit from all the great information presented especially if we had a hard time choosing between sessions.  I feel like there was so much I gained, but also this sense of missing out on a lot too – it says a lot when you sit down with a conference guide and have such a hard time deciding what to go see because they all sound so good!

                Getting the chance to hear Jacqueline Woodson was definitely a highlight. She is so down to earth and her reading voice is almost heart breaking it is so lovely.  I appreciated the chance to have a couple seconds of conversation with her during the book signing and I know I will find a way to incorporate her writing into my curriculum at some point.

                There are few words for getting the chance to work with Laura Packer on storytelling.  I will admit that I almost lamented my decision to tell a story on Friday until my final session with Laura.  She is truly gifted in her art and I will be forever grateful that I took the leap and told a story.  Honestly, it was harder than my session presentation, but it was incredibly empowering to spend those 5 minutes addressing the group on Friday.  I plan to find a way to bring storytelling into my classroom, if nothing else to encourage a sense of safe community for my students – where they can share with one another and feel confident enough to do so. 

                Beyond the amazing ideas and the chance to meet and talk to dynamic teachers who inspire with their love for their craft and their willingness to embrace and encourage those of us at the start of our journey, I also had this tremendous sense of comradery among my WSU peers.  Here we are in our final year together – running toward the light at the end of our time at WSU and our goal to be teachers – and we have so much to offer one another as burgeoning professionals, classmates, peers and friends.  Being able to spend time outside of the classroom, away from our placements and sharing in the experience at KATE was a great opportunity to explore similar interests, share ideas and move beyond our teacher/student lives to really take time to talk and listen to each other.   


                I am incredibly thankful for my experience at KATE and the opportunities I took to push beyond my comfort zone in so many ways both professional and personal.  I cannot wait to see what next year’s KATE might bring!

Thursday, October 1, 2015

The Will-Nots (Genre reflection #1)

         For our first genre reflection I could not get the struggle I'm having in working with students who will not do the work.  They can do the work, they simply refuse to do it.  I have dubbed them the "will-nots" and they are definitely the most trying part of some of my days as a student teacher.  Especially since I see some of them in two classes with the same behavior.  8th grade is too young to be so checked out and disinterested in school in my opinion.  

        As part of allowing myself a release, I wrote a short poem about these "will-nots" as a way to give my struggle a voice.  I keep trying and hoping to have some small success with these students - thank goodness there are still many months of the school year left.  Perhaps I will be able to write a counter to this poem later this year about a small success with one of my "will-not" students. 




  The Will-Nots

In class they sit at tables or at desks
some apt and ready 
some wanting to rest.

There’s the eager to learn,
Who refuse to fail
they work and they strive
good grades will prevail.

Then come the ones who try - 
always doing their best
working through their frustration
refusing to rest.

There is one group left  - the most baffling of all - 
the puzzling will-nots
who seem eager to fall.

They are the ones who can-do 
but simply won’t 
not even to avoid a phone call to home.

They care not, they will not
an F is just fine
this soon to be teacher worries about their decline.

What can I do say or ask
helping the will-nots is no easy task.

I wish that these will-nots could fast forward time 
To see the ripples of their 8th grade decline
Next year is high school - the hardest one yet
where F is a failure with no safety net.

I only hope that one day this year yet, 
My message is one the will-nots will get.
        


Thursday, September 24, 2015

Breaking-in Period




Walking through the doors of a school as a fledgling education major for Core 1 was this wild combination of exciting and terrifying.  I have walked through many (MANY) school doors as a student and as a parent of students, but never as a would-be teacher.  I don’t think anyone was as hyper aware of my anxiety about the whole thing as I was.  I felt like the odd man out those first few visits.  Then something really cool started to happen – I started to feel like the shoes were beginning to fit. 
                     

That break-in period for shoes can be brutal.  If you have broken in a pair of tall (8 eye or so) Dr. Marten boots or the like you understand 100%.  Blisters, rubbing, love the look of the shoes (shiny! great color!) but your feet are hating you every second of the day.  Slowly though, day by day, the rubbing stops, the blisters heal and your feet forgive you.  Before you know it, the shoes feel like part of you and your feet actually love you again.  You thought the shoes looked good before but now they feel even better than they look and you don’t want to take them off. 

Teaching has been like breaking in that pair of shoes.  The first time was nerve-wracking and I was not sure I would be able to go through with it.  I know that sounds melodramatic and some folks will say, “it is just teaching,” but to an anxiety prone mind the ramifications of failing are blown totally out of proportion.  Core 1 and Core 2 were like teaching-light – a few hours and a few lessons enough to know that I could do this at least on a small scale.  In Core 2 I had a placement where I was able and encouraged to jump in a lot more and I could feel myself settling into my shoes - the blisters were startin g to abate. 

Then along came Core 3.  Thankfully, part of the break-in process was done and over.  I will always be grateful that WSU has us in the classroom from the very beginning.  This August on the first day when I walked through the doors of school that will likely be my home away from home for the rest of the school year I felt a bit nervous, but not ready to bolt back to my car.  A huge improvement from Core 1! I was greeted warmly by everyone I met in my building.  And it has only gotten better – the shoes are so much closer to being broken in.

Every day is not perfect, but every day is more comfortable. Every day I feel more like I belong – like I have something to contribute of my own – not just teaching someone else’s lessons with their materials, not just dropping in and seeing students for an hour a week – I really know my students this time around – what a difference that makes!  Those lovely shoes that were so uncomfortable on the inside during Core 1 are no longer giving me blisters or making my feet sore.  They are that much closer to being perfectly molded to my feet.  For the first time in my long line of career choices – I feel constantly energized by my work, by my students, my peers and my mentors.  My building feels warm and welcoming and I wear a smile every day when I am there.  This is huge for me – I am not a naturally social person – but at my school, with my peers I feel like I have somehow found the place where I fit.  Where I truly belong. 




I have searched for this lo these many years.  I could be envious of those who found it at an age younger than mine, but I think for me, all my work/job/career experience before this has contributed to my ability to really thrive and enjoy this process – this breaking-in period.  Of all the shoes I’ve broken in these shoes – these perfectly colored almost perfectly fitted teacher shoes – are the ones I find fit the best and make me the happiest.  

Thursday, September 3, 2015

Annual Book Challenge - Turn that frown upside down kids!

               

My placement middle school, as well as others in the district, has a book challenge that students are expected to participate in during the course of the school year.  Students at my school are expected to read eighteen texts in addition to any reading done for their classes.  At some schools the requirement can be as high as twenty-five books per student.

                Personally, I adore reading and professionally I understand the value in literacy as well as benefits reaped by not just reading, but learning to read well.  But I also see a struggle here.  The collective groan and grimacing faces in our classroom were a clear indicator of how the vast majority of our students felt about having to read eighteen books plus needing to do a one page book report or a quiz on each one.  As a lover of books, an avid reader and a teacher this reaction was impossible to ignore – the students did not want to do this and the majority was openly disgruntled about the task.

                My task became clear – find out why the response to the book challenge was overwhelmingly negative and find ways to have students become excited at the prospect of choosing their own reading material.  Why are our students not interested in reading materials of their own choosing? Is this happening across all grade levels and all classes? How we change student attitude about book challenges?  What resources are available to implement change? 

                In an article titled “Literature Is” published in a 1974 English Journal, G. Robert Carlson proposed five stages of developing readers (23-27):

                  1. Unconscious delight: the typical response of elementary to middle school                               readers. They read for enjoyment without analyzing why;                                                         they have not yet developed a vocabulary for discussing emotional responses.

                  2. Living vicariously: Action and escape seem to dominate for middle school and                       junior high readers – horror, mystery, romance, fantasy and true adventures.

                  3. Seeing oneself: The typical response of readers in junior high school into high                       school is more egocentric.  Now readers are concerned with what’s happening                       in their personal and social lives.  YAL has a strong appeal at this stage.
                                
                  4. Philosophical speculations: Upper level high school students shift from                                  focusing on self to an interest in others, looking for relationships, examining                            why. Some are still reading stories of adolescent life.

                    5. Aesthetic delight: In late high school to adulthood, readers have acquired                              critical awareness and begin to recognize universal themes.  By this stage                              readers have developed the vocabulary to describe literary elements.  They                          can delight in, recognize, and appreciate the qualities of writing.

                1974 may seem like a long time ago, but read the above and tell me you do not see some of this reflected in your students.  I know I do.  I think there is a lot of relevancy in what Carlson says about young readers and what appeals to them as well as what they glean on their own.  I’m not considering what we give them to read or guide them to through in class – but what a student will inherently get from a text if they are reading without guidance.  If we can find where they might be on the above list we might be able to give them better suggestions on texts or even genres they might enjoy reading for things like book challenges.   Pure observation of my students would put the vast majority at number one or number two and we (I) should be guiding them to books that fit those categories.



                I had the good fortune to use Pam Cole’s Young Adult Literature for the 21st Century for a class on Young Adult Literature this summer.  I’m already an avid Young Adult (YA) reader in my own right, but knowing how to shift that enjoyment of literature to my students is much trickier.  In Chapter 2, Cole discusses the various attributes that turn tween and teen readers on and off of reading, but one thread that ran through much of what she had to say here and in other chapters was the emphasis on the social aspect of reading; that teens need their reading to not just disappear into a one person void. 

                Here’s what I see happening: students are given the assignment to read a large number of books with deadlines for each one established by the due date for a book report or book quiz.  They read on their own at home or during selected class time for independent reading (every Friday in the case of my 8th graders) and eventually, per the due date, they turn in their assignment or quiz and move on to the next book.  I see very little community in this process.  I see a lot of deadlines and pressure to move at a particular pace with little positive interactions involving their peers or teachers to talk about what they have read. 

                On top of that, the students resemble deer in the headlights when trying to choose a book.  All those spines of books lining classroom shelves and I suspect many students have no idea where to start trying to find the right level book with an engaging story.  The frustration of students in my class when choosing books or reading what they have chosen is palpable, but I think I can help ease some of their frustration.


                I opted to do a book talk on Friday on a book that might appeal to my students (Gregor the Overlander by Suzanne Collins who also wrote The Hunger Games).  I picked a book already on the classroom shelves and one I happened to have a copy of myself (so we had 2 copies to check out students if they were interested).  I also did some informal book conferences with 7 of my students to ask about what they were reading, if they were enjoying it and if it was a genre they like to read.  I’ll continue to do weekly book talks and the informal conferences, compile that information and see if I can formulate a better picture of student reading interests.  With this information, I hope to set-up some books of interest around the classroom for students to peruse.  

                I think we can do a lot more to make book campaigns a less solitary endeavor.  Have students give book talks on the book they have read or write a comprehensive book review instead of a quiz or book report that they can share with their peers.  Put them up in the classroom or build a binder of book reviews that students can look through to find something they may want to read.  Or do like the bookstores and have students pick suggested books that we can highlight with a few pertinent notes about why the book stood out to them. 

                I think the book challenge can be a powerful purposeful tool to building lifelong readers and I hope I can find ways to turn those early grimaces into something more positive for my students.  If you have such a program at your school  or have input I’d love (LOVE) any ideas or suggestions you might have or resources for making this a positive experience for middle school students!


References

Carlsen, G. Robert. (1974) “Literature IS.” English Journal 63.2, 23-27.    
  
Cole, P. (2009). Young adult literature in the 21st century. Boston: McGraw-Hill Higher Education.


Gallo, D. (2005). From Hinton to Hamlet: Building Bridges between Young Adult Literature and the Classics. Greenwood Publishing Group. 

Friday, August 21, 2015

Rainbows, Unicorns and Glitter



                I would love to come here and write 500 to 800 words about how I am so incredibly certain that this semester will be amazing, everything will go according to plan and that I have no fear whatsoever in teaching for extended periods of time or developing full unit plans for my students.   My goals in this rose colored scenario would be decorated with rainbows, unicorns and gliltter – in other words not exactly steeped in reality.


             Ok, first of all, that is all far to frooffy for me.  I am definitely not the rainbow glittery type.  The reality is this:  I survived week 1.  I daresay I even thrived. I am most definitely exhausted.  I am also really exhilarated. I would love to say that all that middle school energy is rubbing off on me, but this week they were all super tired with no energy for me to siphon (it was all me then, huh? or all that caffeine...).  These kids though even at their most groggy never fail to make me smile (call me strange, but I love this age group a lot).



        Amazingly I am not stressed.  I could be, but I am choosing to focus on my goals instead of the amount of color on my calendar (it is quite a rainbow - but still no unicorns).  Goals are the key to my sanity this year.  So let’s talk about them shall we?



1) Develop strong engaging meaningful unit plans – this is something entirely new to me in so many ways.  My previous placements didn’t allow for me to see unit/lesson progression and that makes this somewhat daunting.  Ok, that was a HUGE understatement because this is pretty much the BIG DAUNTING THING this semester, but I know what Big Idea I’m working with (Fear – how cool is that for a big idea?), I need to pick the short story/piece my unit will cover (there are not one but two Edgar Allan Poe stories I could use and that makes me giddy) and this all means I can start getting the wheels turning and I have plenty of time.  Right?  Right!


2) Become a valued member of the classroom – from my mentor’s perspective, the student’s perspective, my supervisor’s perspective and the perspective of the school administrators.  I always keep in mind that this is essentially a yearlong interview (in addition to a tremendous hands on learning experience obviously) and I strive to be friendly, professional and open to feedback every single day.  I see it as baby steps to getting a job next year and learning how to forge strong relationships with colleagues in the future.


3) Get up when I fall down.  I don’t know when it will happen, but I’ll try to teach something and it will fail. I will take it as an epic irreparable failure (because I’m rational like that when I am freaking out) and I’ll have a tiny voice inside questioning the sanity in choosing this path at this point in my life (I have middle school kiddos of my own afterall).  But, after wallowing for a bit (we all need a good wallow now and again) I will get up, dust myself off and use the multitude of resources around me to get feedback on what I could have done differently. I will solider on!  I will think of all the time I’ve spent to get here, the joy I get being at my placement and my Co-op working with these kids and remember that I chose to be here.  I worked hard to be here and I will see it through. This role – to be a teacher - will be one of the biggest best things in my life.  (Note to self: read this later this semester if things seem a wreck, would you? Sometimes you need to hear the words again and really let them sink in to get out of wallow-mode.)


4) Baby steps.  Plan ahead – yes.  But do not focus on what is further down the line – focus on what needs to be done now to make those far off goals that much easier to reach.  Tackle the big assignments in small chunks – start early, brainstorm, bounce ideas around with my mentor, colleagues and family and lay a strong groundwork.  For me, it is all about seeing the beauty in the baby step. 


5) Perhaps biggest and most important – enjoy this opportunity.  Pre-service student teaching is like walking a tightrope with a huge safety net being held up by an army of experts.  I want to soak it all in – the kids (they make my day), the chance to be in a class every day it meets and see lesson and student progression in action, a mentor who is a huge repository of experience, ideas and inspiration,  and my colleagues and university supervisors and professors who help ease the way, share in the journey and to simply enjoy these last few months before I forge my own path that (hopefully) leads to my own classroom. 



Five goals.  A handful seems like a good number – not too many that I lose track and drop one, but enough to put in a pocket close at hand so I can always hear that little voice telling me to keep going.  

One week down.  Fifteen to go.  I've got this.

Thursday, August 20, 2015

Student Teacher Log

Student teacher log week 1: Thursday.  Almost Friday.  Still alive - this is a positive sign.