Breaking-in Period

Walking through the doors of a school as a fledgling education major for Core 1 was this wild combination of exciting and terrifying.  I have walked through many (MANY) school doors as a student and as a parent of students, but never as a would-be teacher.  I don’t think anyone was as hyper aware of my anxiety about the whole thing as I was.  I felt like the odd man out those first few visits.  Then something really cool started to happen – I started to feel like the shoes were beginning to fit. 

                     

That break-in period for shoes can be brutal.  If you have broken in a pair of tall (8 eye or so) Dr. Marten boots or the like you understand 100%.  Blisters, rubbing, love the look of the shoes (shiny! great color!) but your feet are hating you every second of the day.  Slowly though, day by day, the rubbing stops, the blisters heal and your feet forgive you.  Before you know it, the shoes feel like part of you and your feet actually love you again.  You thought the shoes looked good before but now they feel even better than they look and you don’t want to take them off. 

Teaching has been like breaking in that pair of shoes.  The first time was nerve-wracking and I was not sure I would be able to go through with it.  I know that sounds melodramatic and some folks will say, “it is just teaching,” but to an anxiety prone mind the ramifications of failing are blown totally out of proportion.  Core 1 and Core 2 were like teaching-light – a few hours and a few lessons enough to know that I could do this at least on a small scale.  In Core 2 I had a placement where I was able and encouraged to jump in a lot more and I could feel myself settling into my shoes - the blisters were startin g to abate. 

Then along came Core 3.  Thankfully, part of the break-in process was done and over.  I will always be grateful that WSU has us in the classroom from the very beginning.  This August on the first day when I walked through the doors of school that will likely be my home away from home for the rest of the school year I felt a bit nervous, but not ready to bolt back to my car.  A huge improvement from Core 1! I was greeted warmly by everyone I met in my building.  And it has only gotten better – the shoes are so much closer to being broken in.

Every day is not perfect, but every day is more comfortable. Every day I feel more like I belong – like I have something to contribute of my own – not just teaching someone else’s lessons with their materials, not just dropping in and seeing students for an hour a week – I really know my students this time around – what a difference that makes!  Those lovely shoes that were so uncomfortable on the inside during Core 1 are no longer giving me blisters or making my feet sore.  They are that much closer to being perfectly molded to my feet.  For the first time in my long line of career choices – I feel constantly energized by my work, by my students, my peers and my mentors.  My building feels warm and welcoming and I wear a smile every day when I am there.  This is huge for me – I am not a naturally social person – but at my school, with my peers I feel like I have somehow found the place where I fit.  Where I truly belong. 

I have searched for this lo these many years.  I could be envious of those who found it at an age younger than mine, but I think for me, all my work/job/career experience before this has contributed to my ability to really thrive and enjoy this process – this breaking-in period.  Of all the shoes I’ve broken in these shoes – these perfectly colored almost perfectly fitted teacher shoes – are the ones I find fit the best and make me the happiest.  

Annual Book Challenge - Turn that frown upside down kids!

               

My placement middle school, as well as others in the district, has a book challenge that students are expected to participate in during the course of the school year.  Students at my school are expected to read eighteen texts in addition to any reading done for their classes.  At some schools the requirement can be as high as twenty-five books per student.

                Personally, I adore reading and professionally I understand the value in literacy as well as benefits reaped by not just reading, but learning to read well.  But I also see a struggle here.  The collective groan and grimacing faces in our classroom were a clear indicator of how the vast majority of our students felt about having to read eighteen books plus needing to do a one page book report or a quiz on each one.  As a lover of books, an avid reader and a teacher this reaction was impossible to ignore – the students did not want to do this and the majority was openly disgruntled about the task.

                My task became clear – find out why the response to the book challenge was overwhelmingly negative and find ways to have students become excited at the prospect of choosing their own reading material.  Why are our students not interested in reading materials of their own choosing? Is this happening across all grade levels and all classes? How we change student attitude about book challenges?  What resources are available to implement change? 

                In an article titled “Literature Is” published in a 1974 English Journal, G. Robert Carlson proposed five stages of developing readers (23-27):

                  1. Unconscious delight: the typical response of elementary to middle school                               readers. They read for enjoyment without analyzing why;                                                         they have not yet developed a vocabulary for discussing emotional responses.

                  2. Living vicariously: Action and escape seem to dominate for middle school and                       junior high readers – horror, mystery, romance, fantasy and true adventures.

                  3. Seeing oneself: The typical response of readers in junior high school into high                       school is more egocentric.  Now readers are concerned with what’s happening                       in their personal and social lives.  YAL has a strong appeal at this stage.

                                

                  4. Philosophical speculations: Upper level high school students shift from                                  focusing on self to an interest in others, looking for relationships, examining                            why. Some are still reading stories of adolescent life.

                    5. Aesthetic delight: In late high school to adulthood, readers have acquired                              critical awareness and begin to recognize universal themes.  By this stage                              readers have developed the vocabulary to describe literary elements.  They                          can delight in, recognize, and appreciate the qualities of writing.

                1974 may seem like a long time ago, but read the above and tell me you do not see some of this reflected in your students.  I know I do.  I think there is a lot of relevancy in what Carlson says about young readers and what appeals to them as well as what they glean on their own.  I’m not considering what we give them to read or guide them to through in class – but what a student will inherently get from a text if they are reading without guidance.  If we can find where they might be on the above list we might be able to give them better suggestions on texts or even genres they might enjoy reading for things like book challenges.   Pure observation of my students would put the vast majority at number one or number two and we (I) should be guiding them to books that fit those categories.

                I had the good fortune to use Pam Cole’s Young Adult Literature for the 21^st Century for a class on Young Adult Literature this summer.  I’m already an avid Young Adult (YA) reader in my own right, but knowing how to shift that enjoyment of literature to my students is much trickier.  In Chapter 2, Cole discusses the various attributes that turn tween and teen readers on and off of reading, but one thread that ran through much of what she had to say here and in other chapters was the emphasis on the social aspect of reading; that teens need their reading to not just disappear into a one person void. 

                Here’s what I see happening: students are given the assignment to read a large number of books with deadlines for each one established by the due date for a book report or book quiz.  They read on their own at home or during selected class time for independent reading (every Friday in the case of my 8^th graders) and eventually, per the due date, they turn in their assignment or quiz and move on to the next book.  I see very little community in this process.  I see a lot of deadlines and pressure to move at a particular pace with little positive interactions involving their peers or teachers to talk about what they have read. 

                On top of that, the students resemble deer in the headlights when trying to choose a book.  All those spines of books lining classroom shelves and I suspect many students have no idea where to start trying to find the right level book with an engaging story.  The frustration of students in my class when choosing books or reading what they have chosen is palpable, but I think I can help ease some of their frustration.

                I opted to do a book talk on Friday on a book that might appeal to my students (Gregor the Overlander by Suzanne Collins who also wrote The Hunger Games).  I picked a book already on the classroom shelves and one I happened to have a copy of myself (so we had 2 copies to check out students if they were interested).  I also did some informal book conferences with 7 of my students to ask about what they were reading, if they were enjoying it and if it was a genre they like to read.  I’ll continue to do weekly book talks and the informal conferences, compile that information and see if I can formulate a better picture of student reading interests.  With this information, I hope to set-up some books of interest around the classroom for students to peruse.  

                I think we can do a lot more to make book campaigns a less solitary endeavor.  Have students give book talks on the book they have read or write a comprehensive book review instead of a quiz or book report that they can share with their peers.  Put them up in the classroom or build a binder of book reviews that students can look through to find something they may want to read.  Or do like the bookstores and have students pick suggested books that we can highlight with a few pertinent notes about why the book stood out to them. 

                I think the book challenge can be a powerful purposeful tool to building lifelong readers and I hope I can find ways to turn those early grimaces into something more positive for my students.  If you have such a program at your school  or have input I’d love (LOVE) any ideas or suggestions you might have or resources for making this a positive experience for middle school students!

References

Carlsen, G. Robert. (1974) “Literature IS.” English Journal 63.2, 23-27.    

  

Cole, P. (2009). Young adult literature in the 21st century. Boston: McGraw-Hill Higher Education.

Gallo, D. (2005). From Hinton to Hamlet: Building Bridges between Young Adult Literature and the Classics. Greenwood Publishing Group. 

Rainbows, Unicorns and Glitter

                I would love to come here and write 500 to 800 words about how I am so incredibly certain that this semester will be amazing, everything will go according to plan and that I have no fear whatsoever in teaching for extended periods of time or developing full unit plans for my students.   My goals in this rose colored scenario would be decorated with rainbows, unicorns and gliltter – in other words not exactly steeped in reality.

             Ok, first of all, that is all far to frooffy for me.  I am definitely not the rainbow glittery type.  The reality is this:  I survived week 1.  I daresay I even thrived. I am most definitely exhausted.  I am also really exhilarated. I would love to say that all that middle school energy is rubbing off on me, but this week they were all super tired with no energy for me to siphon (it was all me then, huh? or all that caffeine...).  These kids though even at their most groggy never fail to make me smile (call me strange, but I love this age group a lot).

        Amazingly I am not stressed.  I could be, but I am choosing to focus on my goals instead of the amount of color on my calendar (it is quite a rainbow - but still no unicorns).  Goals are the key to my sanity this year.  So let’s talk about them shall we?

1) Develop strong engaging meaningful unit plans – this is something entirely new to me in so many ways.  My previous placements didn’t allow for me to see unit/lesson progression and that makes this somewhat daunting.  Ok, that was a HUGE understatement because this is pretty much the BIG DAUNTING THING this semester, but I know what Big Idea I’m working with (Fear – how cool is that for a big idea?), I need to pick the short story/piece my unit will cover (there are not one but two Edgar Allan Poe stories I could use and that makes me giddy) and this all means I can start getting the wheels turning and I have plenty of time.  Right?  Right!

2) Become a valued member of the classroom – from my mentor’s perspective, the student’s perspective, my supervisor’s perspective and the perspective of the school administrators.  I always keep in mind that this is essentially a yearlong interview (in addition to a tremendous hands on learning experience obviously) and I strive to be friendly, professional and open to feedback every single day.  I see it as baby steps to getting a job next year and learning how to forge strong relationships with colleagues in the future.

3) Get up when I fall down.  I don’t know when it will happen, but I’ll try to teach something and it will fail. I will take it as an epic irreparable failure (because I’m rational like that when I am freaking out) and I’ll have a tiny voice inside questioning the sanity in choosing this path at this point in my life (I have middle school kiddos of my own afterall).  But, after wallowing for a bit (we all need a good wallow now and again) I will get up, dust myself off and use the multitude of resources around me to get feedback on what I could have done differently. I will solider on!  I will think of all the time I’ve spent to get here, the joy I get being at my placement and my Co-op working with these kids and remember that I chose to be here.  I worked hard to be here and I will see it through. This role – to be a teacher - will be one of the biggest best things in my life.  (Note to self: read this later this semester if things seem a wreck, would you? Sometimes you need to hear the words again and really let them sink in to get out of wallow-mode.)

4) Baby steps.  Plan ahead – yes.  But do not focus on what is further down the line – focus on what needs to be done now to make those far off goals that much easier to reach.  Tackle the big assignments in small chunks – start early, brainstorm, bounce ideas around with my mentor, colleagues and family and lay a strong groundwork.  For me, it is all about seeing the beauty in the baby step. 

5) Perhaps biggest and most important – enjoy this opportunity.  Pre-service student teaching is like walking a tightrope with a huge safety net being held up by an army of experts.  I want to soak it all in – the kids (they make my day), the chance to be in a class every day it meets and see lesson and student progression in action, a mentor who is a huge repository of experience, ideas and inspiration,  and my colleagues and university supervisors and professors who help ease the way, share in the journey and to simply enjoy these last few months before I forge my own path that (hopefully) leads to my own classroom. 

Five goals.  A handful seems like a good number – not too many that I lose track and drop one, but enough to put in a pocket close at hand so I can always hear that little voice telling me to keep going.  

One week down.  Fifteen to go.  I've got this.

Student Teacher Log

Student teacher log week 1: Thursday.  Almost Friday.  Still alive - this is a positive sign.